Neptune Retrograde – The Impossible Dream

Do you believe that we are all part of an eternal struggle, an unending cycle that encompasses and connects all beings as one? That each being has a unique function to fulfil in the great circle of life? That for you to grasp the meaning of life you must first come to discover your unique function, and in order to live a happy and contented life, you must somehow accomplish that function?

Well, as far as stories go, that’s a good one, especially if you’re the anxious, purposeful kind. There are many, many more stories. Just ask NEPTUNE…

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One thing about humans is that their lives are filled with stories. We think in stories rather than facts, data, numbers and equations because stories are soothing to our soul and embellish our otherwise cruel and mundane existence on this physical plane. Whilst some stories we tell seem entirely plausible to others, at least some of the time, it seems that some of our stories can be utterly out of this world. Yes, perhaps they are really believable to someone – if only to ourselves. However, like when we attempt to recount a dream we just had, some stories just appear like they’re a figment of our wildest imagination.

How deep can your imaginative mind fathom?

You might hear somebody talking about past lives, ie., “In a previous life I was Cleopatra”... which would then be followed by a most impressive, intricately woven, delightful story, with plots of intrigue, mystery, murder and romance. You entertain and humour them, particularly if it’s a person whom you know very well, but also observe that they are speaking to you like they are off on another level as if carried away, enchanted, infatuated with some alternative version of themselves.

Chances are strong that when people depart from the linear stream of connectivity, that they are sharing with you a story which is none but a gratuitous attempt to glamourise their Ego. If the story has no symbolic meaning or is incongruent to how you are experiencing this person at this very moment, then it is most unlikely to connect with you and your intersubjective imagination. In fact, it may confound and confuse you to the point where you fail to relate, dismiss their claims as false and even decide to avoid this person.

This is the danger of Neptune in Retrograde: We simply struggle to get our highly abstract ideas across to others through our stories. The narrative of our ideas becomes so acutely personalised and slightly removed from the course of our intersubjective reality that our subjective vision becomes difficult if not impossible for others to grasp.

Neptune seeks to take us to a higher dimension. Its energy activates the faculties of imagination, fantasy, intuition and sensitivity towards others, providing access to quantum realities and higher dimensional experiences.

That fantastic novel, sci-fi movie, or the tune that manages to lift your spirit out from its usual mundane drudgery soothes the dull rancour of your lifeless boredom and takes you away to another dimension and appeals to your Neptunian side. Through the sheer force of your own imagination, those breathtaking moments of true inspiration are Neptune at work. It is the ability not just to sense, but to be vividly moved into an exalted state, one which is often incredibly difficult to articulate into your own, ordinary, every-day terms. But are those visions capable of capturing the imagination of others, or are you indulging a personal trip into some schmaltzy sentimentalia?

Ghosts, spirits, aliens, quasars, UFO’s, wild conspiracy theories and all sorts of incredible alternative realities are such phenomena that you may hear about often, but there is often insufficient evidence to substantiate or credibly qualify these into the acceptance of other peoples’ intersubjective truth.

Some stories, like those created in our dreams, exist only for our subjective purposes. Perhaps they are there to alleviate the stress of some emotional drama in our lives. Or they are trying to facilitate our creative tendencies. Or perhaps our dreams are there to help us process important memories and things we’ve learned or to relinquish trivial memories and dissipate complicated thoughts and feelings.

Only the ultra-sensitive, psychically-trained, refined and mystical mind, which seems aptly attuned to these subtle realms and which claim to have lucid and commanding access to alternative dimensions, can somehow find a way delineate these stories to us in a way which we may find acceptable and perhaps convincing.

The mystic, the inspired movie director or artist, the spiritual guru, the poet, the miracle healer, the visionary dreamer, the psychic medium, the Christ and martyr of his cause are some of the embodied forms in which Neptune presents its nebulous, quantum force. And these are almost always surrounded with a sense of scepticism and controversy.

Many of our stories, even the best ones, seem incomplete. That’s the nature of this chaotic universe. It isn’t quite possible to produce a narrative which seems thoroughly cohesive. Hence, society will often be at the ready to dismiss and discredit those seen to be operating in the questionable, more mischievous functions of Neptunian energy by labelling them as crooks and shysters, liars and bandits, mentally infirm, or as persons of doubtful or dubious character.

There is a very fine line between the mystic and the swindler, and this is marked mainly by the degree to which the individual seeks to use these nebulous, largely vague energies to deceive others to merely gratify their own ego.

Our ability to relate our connection with the divine source to others, with a sense of egoless-ness and humility, is what determines how well others will accept our inspiration. Being truly egoless requires tremendous sacrifice, compassion, and surrender to the realm of the immutable nature of universal truths. The success in our ability to inspire others when relaying our Neptunian stories rests upon our ability to avoid arousing any suspicion of deceptiveness or delusion on our part.


Due to the distant 165-year orbit of Neptune, the great planet spends half of the year to the other side of the Sun. Hence, we experience his motion at only about 3 degrees at a time before he appears to travel in retrograde. For this reason, Neptune transits tend to last for years, contacting points in our natal chart at least three times.

Neptune may enter our lives through illness – mental, physical or emotional. If he affects any aspect of our chart his ego-dissolving nature may make us exceptionally weak, vulnerable, susceptible to infection or influences that could wear us down. It can be through agents like alcohol or drugs or through swindlers and mystics that we can be open to escapisms and “supernatural” experiences, prophetic dreams, divine visitations, or through an inspired revelry into art, music, religion, spirituality, or some “magical” confluence into the great divine. Or it could enter our lives as a terrible mistake, a folly that may or may not work in our favour.

However we wish to play it, we need to ride it out and understand that the end result will be to loosen us up, dissolve and spiritualise our ego.

With Neptune turning retrograde at 20°♓58′ (June 22), the tendency to take this energy in a completely subjective way means that we feel it far more sensitively than when it is direct. Our susceptibility and receptivity to the subtle nuances of both the lowest and highest vibrations become ever more porous and exposed. If affected, it may be difficult to know exactly what is going to work on us, tampering with our ‘story’, just enough to tilt us out of calibration with the reality. In hard aspects, our personal vision somehow struggles to connect the figment of the collective imagination. Confusion and disillusionment may follow this period.

When Neptune turns direct again (November 28) we may begin to sense the ability to feel (receive and transfer) this energy in a less subjective manner. Eventually, if our ego becomes completely disengaged from our fanciful stories, we may stand to have a better sense of discernment of what is real and what was simply unbelievable.

Neptune’s direct motion can help us realise where in fact we might have “lost ourselves” (or others) in translation. At some point comes a time, therefore, when we may be humbled enough (or perhaps humiliated) to come to grips with how, in being seduced by a story, we may have undermined ourselves or compromised the integrity of our truth. Whether it was through an episode of impressionability, confusion, misunderstanding, idealised notions or outright deceptiveness through lies, mischief or fraud – we eventually get a chance to clear up the mess and come clean.

Neptune Stationary

Perhaps the best medicine for Neptune transits is seclusion, silence, solitude and meditative reflection. Rest and tender care, away from the abrasiveness of others is perhaps the prefered way to spend this period.

Our higher, more compassionate, all-loving self may struggle to connect to the pain and misery that we often sense around us. Ideally, we may wish to avoid having to make practical or logical decisions. Neptune’s retrograde period will take us back to revisit moments when we had possibly been lain open to confusion, deception and false leads. We are afforded a chance to see the error of our egotistical ways, to straighten or dispel our story, or if the stubborn ego still insists on holding up, we may double down and make things even messier.

“When you once see something as false which you have accepted as true, as natural, as human, then you can never go back to it.”

― Jiddu Krishnamurti

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  1. It’s the first time I feel heard … Understood… Seen … And real … Thank you … You just changed my life.

  2. Thank you, Ang. You are a breath of fresh air.

  3. Is there a way to know if Neptune is direct or retrograde in our chart? I think it´s my regent planet so i´d really like to know..

  4. Yes, if you do your chart on say, find Neptune and if it is retrograde, there will be a ‘r’ beside it.

  5. Shhhhhhh! Thank you Ang

  6. This is so profoundly true. Thank you. Totally feeling it. Alone is a quiet refuge.

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