angstoic.com Astrologer, Ang Stoic
SCORPIO/SCORPIO RISING
“An almost childlike hunger for approval could see you under a spell, totally dependent on those who will flatter you and pamper your ego…”
Your need for public recognition, approval, and praise creates an air of extreme vulnerability and stress under this Full Moon. You feel that high expectations from others (such as family and close ones) becomes not only influential but a critical motivating factor in determining your choices and decisions from this point.
You wish nothing more than to receive some applause; you have a very high opinion of your abilities and powers. Yet deep within, much insecurity is gathering, especially when you feel ignored or not treated as someone special.
This insecurity can result in feeling that you must live up to other people’s standards and to further other people’s goals to gain acceptance or your place in the world. This need for approval from others, as if you are a child wanting reassurance from parents, could force you to conform to others’ expectations of you, and hence deny your real feelings, instincts, and freedom.
To make things worse, an unconscious Neptunian need to transcend the limitations of this world undermines your self-confidence and self-esteem, primarily since you depend on feedback from others to measure your worth. Your longing to be admired can lead to a deadly dependency since even the highest praise and respect from others could not genuinely fulfil the yearning you experience to be loved absolutely. Others can only provide a temporary uplift.
An almost childlike hunger for approval could see you under a spell, totally dependent on those who will flatter you and pamper your ego. This desperate need for constant reassurance will sap the energies of those who do indeed love you and cheat you out of earning the freedom and self- confidence that you so badly need. In fact, your infantile attachment patterns only cut you off from that which genuinely promises to nourish you with the very nutrients you need to grow strong and confident in your own right.
Needless to say, that this insecure desire to be loved and acknowledged wreaks havoc through your most significant relationships. To be mature, you must aspire to rise beyond your demandingness and possessiveness. And jealousy is for babies. Your adult self knows that no one can ever own or control anyone’s opinion of you. You must earn that.
Any crisis in your life now is trying to teach you to dedicate yourself to more universal causes that allow you to do your part in furthering the evolution of the race.
When you focus your efforts on the larger drama, you allow yourself to become a vehicle or force of energy which serves to further the purposes of humankind. Your powerful ego can then assume a more balanced role in society. By devoting yourself to a higher cause, you may see yourself acting as a direct channel which helps others to help the planet. Only then can others forgive and accept your childlike qualities, becoming more tolerant of your mistakes because they will intuitively know that your motive was primarily for the highest benefit.
Repressing characteristics that fail to match this greater, humanitarian ideal could create a strong dissociation and personality fragmentation, and should be avoided. Aim to become a whole person; acknowledge your totality and do not condemn any part of you that fails to meet expectations of others, especially those of family.
Through greater awareness of your objectives offered by the circumstances around this lunation, you become more explicit about the ideals of humanity that you support. This clarity then allows you to provide approval and vital support to others without expectations of loyalty.
Your ability to rise above childish needs and your commitment to move toward the higher cause opens a portal to a flood of unexpected appreciation for your generosity of spirit where you will least expect it.