angstoic.com Astrologer, Ang Stoic
ARIES/ARIES RISING
“… you may feel forced to undergo specific ‘awakenings’. Individual experiences will implore you to come down from your esteemed position and acknowledge those who stand at the foundations of your success.”
Leading into these Eclipses and for many months to follow, a sacred challenge lies before you. You wish for nothing more than to experience freedom from oppression, not just for yourself but for your whole clan. To be free, you must learn to overcome the burden of your karmic fate – the powerful forces that govern over you and your entire life’s direction, which you hold responsible for everything that happens to you.
While you may soon stand to make a showdown of it, you must learn to control yourself, resist the compulsion to try to counter-control others using the same, ominously overpowering forces.
Just as you are learning that it is nobody’s business to govern and manipulate your life to suit their selfish ends, you are similarly finding that others are not there for you to use and abuse either. Treating each other with contempt if we fail to yield to unreasonable demands is not respectful, kind and even reasonably sustainable. What hurts our prerogative today eventually builds into hatred and disdain.
ISOLATION AT THE SUMMIT:
During this eclipse period, deeply subconscious memories of being manipulated by society stir very vigorously within you. You may also be consciously observing an urge to take force and dominate everything you see around you, or at least certain areas of your life which you consider are beneath you, or that you feel are yours to control.
In recent years, you may have put yourself into positions where you have forcibly had to be master of your dominion, if not the commander of all others’ domains too. As such, you have gradually become accustomed to assuming an authoritative stance whenever you observe a weakness in others; a hidden motive within you that automatically endows you with a compelling attitude that you have the right to take charge in certain areas.
Of course, you naturally enjoy the role of playing the authority, guardian and protector, leader and custodian to all that you attract. You may go to enormous extremes in supplementing your world with power, especially over those whose very ‘weaknesses’ puts them under your dominion. By so doing, you have been continuously testing your ability to stand tall and rule with a sort of benevolent kindness that holds others indebted to your seniority over them.
This, either assumed or self-appointed authority, however, can become such a profoundly isolating and emotionally lonely and burdensome position. You take your esteemed role so seriously; become so concerned with your level of importance that you corner yourself into a place where you can never quite allow others to see into your real inner self.
PLUMBING THE DEPTHS:
The grand reveal of these eclipses will be that what you do publicly exhibit eventually becomes evident to others that it’s only a facade. The brave mask of the responsible custodial role one plays for the world becomes more and more visible to others, especially during the energetic lull between the two eclipses ( Dec 26-Jan 11).
Through extenuating circumstances, particularly those played out in public life, you may feel forced to undergo specific ‘awakenings’. Individual experiences will implore you to come down from your esteemed position and acknowledge those who stand at the foundations of your success (or power). For instance, if you are the CEO of a large company, you may be forced to and go down to visit the mailroom, the boiler room, the basement and reconnect with the heartstrings of your organisation.
What’s going on down there? Is everything ok? How do others feel about the way that you have been managing your operation? How are your people – the ones that matter most to you – your tribe, your blood relatives? Are they happy with how you are steering this ship of life?
Maybe not. If that’s a fact, then it’s a problem.
It is deep down, in the root area of your most personal relationships, especially those within your own family that the arena of a most formidable battle of wills takes place. In some way, events conspire to thrust you into situations of enormous conflict in an attempt to force you to reconnect with your patrilineal roots. Feels as if you are either revisited or possessed by the spirit of a most demanding parent (or dead ancestor) whose unyielding expectations to achieve a supreme position of sitting on top of the world are still guiding you and your free will. As a result, you begin to feel dissatisfied with whatever situation you find yourself in, sensing that it is under threat, or is falling short of how you believe it was meant to be.
The vital lesson then starts to revolve around this notion that “a bird in the hand” is not enough, and that the “two (or more) in the bush” must be seized immediately and at all costs for the sake of securing your position of governance. You may even face the dilemma where you feel you must risk or abandon what little you do have to try to possess the entire lot.
Beware of becoming unwilling to yield or compromise your absolute authority. It may seem that taking a back-seat position on matters you consider are yours (and yours alone) alone to govern is entirely out of the question. In the extreme case, if circumstances force you to cede or forfeit your position of power, making you step aside, you would be inclined to contemplate trashing it all rather than yielding an inch to somebody else. Such is your inflexible tenet that you believe without achieving some grand destiny that life is utterly worthless to you.
CONFRONTING THE TRUTH:
This Solar Eclipse and its sister Lunar Eclipse hence pose a critical struggle between facing the ‘political’ dramas in your outer world and how to reach some spiritual balance between building a career and legacy for yourself and appeasing the demands of your family and conserving the integrity of your entire heritage.
One way or another, you are growing into a level of spiritual maturity because, for all your projected strength, power and public esteem, you discover you are almost crippled when it comes to dealing with your emotional problems. It is essential to dig deep and earnestly explore the strength of your psychological roots now. It would be best if you pulled your head out of the lofty, idealistic clouds. The vision of nostalgically returning to some glorious version of the past cannot succeed for you. Aim to build a sound, practical foundation to a more realistically attainable future. Do this creatively, with the intent to honour all that this earth and its ancestors have entrusted you.
Primarily you will come to realise that your self-appointed position as custodian for the destiny over others is merely just a distraction from putting your inner world in order.
YOUR OWN REWARD:
Look at the relationship established with your parents early in life. How have their unique demands influenced the way your world has turned out. Look at all the responsibilities that you have taken on. Observe where you have chosen to spend much of your life energy, perhaps attempting to be free and independent of any parental influences, yet always conscious of how much you depend on them, trying to earn their blessing or approval.
Regardless of this, your current reactive patterns to life continue to show a definite parental defiance, masking a strong need for parental love. These powerful lunation mark the point in your life story where whatever you do makes you feel unappreciated for all your efforts. The pattern that you have fashioned yourself into leaves a nasty residue that dictates that only accomplishments based on public achievement will earn you the recognition and appreciation you so sorely seek from your family.
Instead, it would help if you learned that achievement is its own, most prestigious reward. Therefore, your spirit must stop trying to gain the applause of a public audience for your accomplishments, for any acclaim will seem hollow if your heart is not first and foremost able to applaud the things you do. What you will learn most is that the audience you deserve will always be there if your deeds are coming from your heart.
It is in therefore in this process of seeking higher command over a greater audience, one that means so much to you, heart and soul, that you tend to lose yourself. The big struggle through 2020 means that you must transform your inner domain into a world of unshakeable new attitudes. Here, you learn that when you stand on shaky emotional foundations, your enormously lofty self-importance is inherently unsteady and most prone to toppling over.
Something quite beautiful happens here. A realisation similar to when a child first catches adults out: when the child first suspects that the grown-ups who govern over him/her don’t always know what they are doing; that their judgments are not always the supremely wisest; that their thinking is not necessarily always clear; that their sentences are not always just. When you discover that those ‘rulers’ who lead you into this situation, just like the child, your whole world falls into total desolation. The once esteemed patriarchs now seem to have become crestfallen, and all certainty and safety seems disappeared.
But hang on. There is one sure thing that comes after we discover the fall of gods: that when they fall from their heavens, they don’t just drop a little; they come crashing down into a crumbling heap. And though we may do everything we can to try and build them up again, they never quite shine in the same way. Just as the child’s world never entirely becomes whole again, so does an inner aching in the adult of not having experienced a kind of spiritual growth.
You will learn not to overemphasise your importance as someone who holds the mercy and well-being of your entire tribe in your own hands. Grow to come into alignment with your inner nature, earthed firmly only by emotional substance; be so emotionally fulfilled that you no longer have to equate your happiness with attaining your esteem from your public standing.