angstoic.com Astrologer, Ang Stoic
AQUARIUS/AQUARIUS RISING
“Perhaps you are looking for greater control since an indeterminate or ‘magical’ fear or insecurity seems to loom over you, like a creepy ghost of some past, unfinished business…”
This Full Moon energises you in one of two distinct ways since conflicting emotions may cause you to question whether you have what it takes to form (and sustain) authentically fulfilling intimate relationships.
There is a danger that your needs to be loved and admired by another will dominate other valid concerns, such as true compatibility and friendship. If you try to apply pressure due to unwarranted or unsubstantiated fears, or a vague level of self-esteem and identity, then you will tend to create an unbalance in the relationship, either through a pathological dependency or some system of domination and control.
Wanting to ‘belong’ to someone is not a proper motivation to secure a mature and evolving relationship. Nobody can ever be under possession, and this may make you vulnerable to abuse and exploitation by a less solicitous partner.
It is time to assess your own level of autonomy and independence around others. How adult/infantile is the exchange? How well are you balancing the kind of energetic attachments you form, especially to a vague outcome proposed to you by others without ceding the demands of others. How likely are you to snap into reactive, dissociative behaviour and lose control when things don’t stack up fairly and evenly?
This Full Moon is cooking up quite a test for you – some event which challenges your current position and your overall stake in the outcome. Do you have a plan on how to maintain your equilibrium in the face of crisis? Even if you are decidedly not in any significant relationship, your voluntary isolationism will likely pitch you into conflict. Something will stimulate you to look deeper into the issues behind why you have taken such an imbalanced view about becoming appointed more intimately with others.
Do you even recognise what your needs are? What is essential for you to receive from another that you feel may be held, supported or nurtured? And what is it that you can offer to a partner; is your tendency to create illusions about money, possessions and sensual pleasures, or creative pursuits, causing unreasonable expectations about what they can provide? With your ruler Uranus in Taurus, there will be many instabilities over the next few years. Until you can adjust your attitude and learn to be more financially independent, you may tend to ignore or deny the importance that money and earning power has on your sense of security and attachment.
Perhaps you are looking for greater control since an indeterminate or ‘magical’ fear or insecurity seems to loom over you, like a creepy ghost of some past, unfinished business.
If you are looking to bond with someone to serve as a fairy godmother or sugar-daddy figure, or someone who promises to protect your vulnerable, undeveloped child-nature and make all the important decisions for you, then you are playing into the auspices of your own doom.
See how much you have to adjust your will, emotions, feelings, and desires to accommodate those of a partner. Is your identity dependent on a partner, or can you stand alone? Is your focus too self-centred, or are you putting too much emphasis on trying to avoid others? Are you trying to satisfy your partner’s needs at the expense of your own?
Avoid the void of trying to avoid others entirely and trying to escape through drugs (and other agents) could make you paranoid in the process. No matter where you try to hide, your fears will pursue you. If you choose to relegate your anxieties to a worldwide level, seeing conspiracies behind all problems and imminent world disasters, you could feel that you are the ultimate victim of society.
In this case, it is no wonder that others grow tired of hearing about your revelations and perhaps feel like you are neglecting them or at least trying to repress and subvert whatever it is that’s really the problem.
The universe requires that you become completely present and deal with the many challenges to stay creative in finding solutions to how you will make a more sustainable and independently wealthy situation for yourself around others. Be mindful of what it is you have to work with, listen and learn to cooperate. Make sure that you can generate enough interest and enthusiasm to keep others engaged in your future vision, or choose a mate (mates) who consciously want to evolve with you.